Tuesday, August 25, 2009

cheap thrills in lyf!

Cheap Thrills in life :):)

Hehe...i really believe all of us have both the devil and the angel within us.and let me be honest with you,sometimes i really enjoy being the devil (come on,dont u get bored when you continuously have to be someone you are not :P kiddin!! )
its these cheap thrills in lyf,which make me laugh at myself.things like,

singing the most hated song to ur frn or sibling.
calling ur frn r siblings with the name they hate,
tellin gur loved ones,that its one of their spl frn on phone,when it turns out to be just the opposite.
making that one noise,which wud freak them out!!
describe about the date they wud be having with their most -disgusted acquaintance ( i luv to do this with my bro n mum)
to keep reminding ur loved ones,of the embarassing moment which happened that day,which he/she is hoping to forget. :p
teasing ur loved ones,and giving them their reactions,which means they are completely clueless on waht to do abt the whole thing!
laughing out uncontrollably,when someone falls.! :p (thou u really feel sorry for them inside! )

hehe...the list actually goes on..i will update it,with evrything that i land up doin in the daz to cum !!

Friday, August 21, 2009


I have no idea whatsoever on what I 'm gonna write, where m gonna start, and where I 'm gonna end. And I solemnly swear that I 'm up to no good in writing. :).well, now that I have made my declarations, I guess I can virtually blab whatever I want :) yeah me!!..

Hmm..have u ever wondered or got this thought that it’s all a drama..life..I mean, the whole thing is a sequence of dramas. well I have. when I come to think of it, nothing is real..nothing is the actual reality..be it the people or the circumstances or our reactions and responses to them..all of it, its all surreal. sometimes I get this feeling that we are playing a drama within a drama, and the whole thing..the entire world is a drama being watched by the One above. funny, right? maybe weird.

I have also observed a weirdly funny thing about myself. Why about myself..? coz I can talk only on my authority. I needn't bother about the mistakes I make about my life. I can happily make them, correct them and learn from them IF I WANT to...or just let it pass by. Anyway, that weirdly funny thing that I was talking about..:)...most of the times...I jus give a projection of myself..(I believe most of us do that..:P) but apparently the projection I give varies according to the people I relate with. I was just thinking how it must have all started and I came up with this. when I started relating, say to my friend Ted, she has bought the idea that I 'm funny, dont-care-about-what- u say, insensitive, happy gal.. maybe I am, maybe I am not. but that’s her opinion of me, so be it..i would project myself that way to u. a Buddhist saying goes "JO THO MOTH JO THO POTH" it means “how much ever be the number of people, so many possible ways.” so each of my friends have their own image of me, and hence I have so many projections of myself. "then u must have lost yourself,your identity"...u may wonder. I dont agree to it coz of the simple reason, I haven’t forgotten who I actually am. It’s just that I am not letting people know who I actually am. I am consciously letting people think whatever they wanna think about me. but I keep letting myself know the reality of myself.

One more thing, I just love this new thought.

It’s not just a fuzzy statement. It’s a game, and a way to know oneself.well I wanna explain the statement-jus for the heck of it!!
u are reading this post-that’s the experience we are talking about in the right most part of the sentence.
as u read,you could have though-"omg what is she trying to say!!" –that’s the experience in the middle of the sentence.
all of us know or are aware till this.
but, do you realize, that you can put yourself apart, away from the two experiences mentioned above, and just WATCH the whole thing. I 'm trying to say, you can take yourself(the so-called yourself, 'coz once you take away, its not u..;)..) away from yourself and watch the whole thing as if you are a third person..as if something is just happening..happening,but not to you.

what’s the point?! you may wonder. I told you, it’s a game. try it just for the heck of it, during work, during class..it might boggle you. well there is also this side effect, it gets you to know yourself, to realize who you actually are. and it just makes you live in THE present continuous, not bringing your past experience and thereby blinding yourself to the newness of that moment!!

it helps you to live life-MOMENT BY MOMENT...being AWARE of yourself. trust me ,you would discover oceans about you.

Until we meet again,